CRY NOT, KATARINA.
She walked along the barb-fenced path holding a Sony Erickson
phone on her right and a pink-mini sized purse on her left. A glance in the sky
indicated dark nimbus clouds that seemed ready to fall, and a cool breeze that
swept lightly across the lower atmosphere. Step by step her pace increased,
suggestively hurrying to reach her college room before the rains started.
This was the winter season that many students whimsically
fled the 8.00 a.m. classes to enjoy the soothing warmth of their blankets that
seemed to multiply as the morning matured. But from the display clock on the
screen of her phone, noon was 45 minutes away and the possibility of it raining
then was ruled out – it was almost customary in this region to experience
showers in the evening only.
Time was moving fast. She thought in herself. Here and there students
rushed, some in pairs and others in groups. Exams were three days away and
everyone wanted to finalize certain formalities that were a mandatory before
sitting an examination paper.
In her room, every item was properly placed. It was neat,
spacious and romantic. Though privacy was moderate, infringement never existed
here. Everyone respected the worth and dignity of fellow folk and exercised the
virtues of love, peace and unity. Anything less of this, they believed, “was subversion of our fundamental
principles in religion.”
One hour later, she still sat on her bed, thinking about what
to do next. The absence of her mates gave her a fulfilling sense of solitude
that she cherished for the better part of the afternoon. Reflections,
meditations and castle building in the air dominated her mental skies. It appeared
all possible ways to salvage a much-hyped “card “were exhausted. Nevertheless,
she never retreated to hopelessness.
No! She was not the kind of a woman to be gripped by the
“giving up” spirit. She resisted the urge to acquiesce to the reality of the
undermining words hurled to her by the staff at the finance office. “Just go
home and prepare for next time, we can’t help you here,” she recalled him
saying.
This phrase pierced and irked. Her heart pounded more, with
eyes glaring indiscreetly and her chin resting on her right hand palm and her
elbow on the lower part of her thigh. Pleas to convince the clearing gent at
the ‘cash’ office fell on deaf ears. He adamantly insisted to have his eyes
read a nil remark on the fee structure before any written permission to sit the
university examination.
Things seemed darker and darker. Every passing minute offered
more grief and disillusionment. Failure to secure a card on this day, a Friday,
would aggravate more despair and eventually lead to total blockage from the
colleges’ end semester exams. She never imagined missing the tests given that
she had all through struggled to settle three quarter of her fee arrears, and
wished to negotiate for later payment of the remainder soonest possible as the
exams progressed. Nevertheless, no one considered Katarina’s cries.
She paused in her thoughts and moaned, `Do I deserve to go
through these? Is there any way out?’
The dean of her school had ignored and repulsed any attempt
to square things over the table about her fee predicament. Her guardian’s last
call had absolutely confirmed that no cash was to be expected then. And she
understood this. It was not anybody’s fault that she came from a humble background.
It was God’s will, and she never blamed anyone; But with Martin Luther King’s
dreams and Mahatma Gandhi’s audacity, she remained optimistic that it’s not
ever human beings remained in this humiliating state of deprivation.
It is not ever that
God’s own image people remained subjects of ridicule and torment.
No! It is
not ever! It is not even ever students like her drank from the bitter cup of
college suffering and unwillingly ate the stale bread of rejection and social
criticism. She fervently believed that in every desert of calamity, there was
an oasis of hope. Moreover, it is this hope amidst the storm of tribulations
she faced that became the anchor, she kept holding on.
Words of a certain scholar virtually inebriated her heart and
gave an aura of consolation in the face of these trying moments: “At times,”
the scholar reiterates, “Life is hard, as hard as crucible steel. It has its
bleak and painful moments. Like the ever flowing waters of a river, life has
its moments of drought and its moments of flood. Like the ever changing cycle
of seasons, life has the soothing warmth of the summers and the piercing chill
of its winters. But through it all, God walks with us. Never forget that God is
able to lift you from fatigue of despair to the buoyancy of hope, and transform
dark and desolate valleys into sunlit paths of inner peace.”
She sprang up abruptly and incoherently muttered some words
between her lips. Oh no, she realized she had been asleep. She stood and
glanced around, her roommates hadn’t yet returned. It was oblivious they were
doing last touches and revising as the first exam papers were just around the
corner, on a Monday. She stretched and yawned and reached for her phone. “Three
missed calls, gosh!” she whispered.
It was normal to receive calls from strangers especially here
at campus. A secret admirer could search and get your contact from friends, and
what follows would be a series of flashing and text messaging to woo you into a
relationship. However, for Katarina the thought of romantic relationships,
though necessary, did not cross her mind. She never allowed fantasies to scuttle
her zeal for education. Her mettle remained intact. There was time for
everything, especially for now, she kept soliloquizing.
In the melee of confusion about the missed calls, her phone
was ringing once again. Still held in her hand, she checked the caller, it was
the new number! Ready to bash the hoarse-be caller if they streamed sweet
nothings to her ear, she hesitantly received and instead, a cajoling voice met
her ear. It was a woman’s voice…
“Hallo Katarina? Halloo…” Little exchange of pleasantries and
introductions ensued.
She did not
know how long they had conversed and neither did she readily believe nor accept
what had just been confirmed to her. She rushed out, slamming the door behind
her, and headed straight to where her caller had directed before the offices
closed. What followed changed the sad mood of the day. It was amazing! Did
someone trace her movements? She wondered as tears of joy trickled her dimpled
cheeks.
Two days later, she sat calmly in the cream painted exam
hall, sure and satisfied that she possessed the right armory to tackle the bull
by the horns – to dare the examiners questions as everyone else in the room.
As I prepare to pen off, my mind drifts to the plight of
students as they walk the academic journey; as they struggle to make ends meet;
as they suffer and sacrifice in pursuit of excellence; as they explore all
available ways to change that bleak looking future. Do we take time to share
their experiences or check them out? Do we deprive ourselves of little vanity
pleasures to put a smile on our brother or sister’s face or do we dismiss their
condition as normal in life?
I never intended to finish this article but I will! I took
time to evaluate all what revolves around a needy student’s life in college,
and I made a fulfilling personal resolution.
We may wine, we may romance, and we may insatiably fill our
stomachs – but let us be our brother’s keeper. Let us join in pushing for
considerations by our administrative structures for the sake of predicaments of
our brothers and sisters – whether disciplinary, financial or academic related.
If an institution can spent thousands of shillings annually
to provide security to animals and to fence empty fields, it can surely also,
willingly spent a similar or double amount of those monies to bail genuine
students out of petty fee balances;
To assure them of support whenever necessary;
To put a cheer in their lives occasionally;
And to extend the same to other students in other
levels of education as a sign of corporate responsibility service.
Students Great Investors Charity Association, abbreviated as
SGI, is an example of such a student movement body that has defied all odds to
dedicate and marshal financial, spiritual support to all needy students – at
secondary and tertiary levels. It is not composed of the needy per se, but of
all students who have a zeal for the welfare of others. It’s open to you all
out there. It is akin to a family that lives together by all virtues of
kindness, generosity and goodwill.
Chepkoilel University College is the register of that
association. Come all and be part of this SGI family. Procrastination hindered
timely completion of this excerpt, but I now end it here. I immerse myself into
other activities in the confines of my college cubicle. So do I. We meet again
in pen and paper. End of reflection.